Despite
all the effort we put into self-improvement,
we sometimes find ourselves stuck with
the same character problems. Rav Kalonymous
Kalman of Piasetzna zt"l in his Bnei Machshava
Tova ("Direction and Principles" #8, p.
51) suggests that the reason for our failure
to change might be not properly diagnosing
our problem.
Rav
Kalonymous Kalman talks about character
problems using imagery of both medicine
and warfare.
At
first he speaks of character improvement
like fighting a carefully planned war.
Strategy must be developed based on honest
and thorough research. See what is really
holding back improvement and then overcome
the barrier. If one tactic does not work,
try another and yet another. Persistence
and hard work -- never deserting the battlefield
-- will, with G-d's help, certainly bring
success.
His
examples of researching the source of
character problems also sound very much
(though he does not actually say it) like
a medical diagnosis. [The analogy between
physical and moral sickness is a common
theme in ethical literature.] Improper
diagnosis can lead us to unproductive
character work.
A
given character problem can be traced
to a number of different sources. How
to change depends on what the real source
of the problem is. Rav Kalonymous gives
two illustrations:
A.
A person is angry. There are a number
of possibilities for the source of his
anger. He might be hotheaded. But, says
Rav Kalonymous Kalman, his anger might
actually stem from his arrogance. Because
he looks down on others, he thinks nothing
of his harsh words for them. Even people
who are not prone to negative expressions
of anger against people will sometimes
hit or scream at an animal to get it moving.
So if the arrogant-angry person wants
to change, opens up a mussar book, and
takes a piece of advice about how not
to be hotheaded, he will not succeed in
dealing with his problem. His source problem
is arrogance; it is only manifesting itself
in anger.
B.
Two people might both be arrogant, but
the source of their arrogance might be
totally different. The first has a bloated
image of himself, while the second simply
has not had contact with people that are
greater than he. The solution to the second
person's problem is much simpler than
that of the first. If he meets great tzaddikim
or lamdanim he will see himself in perspective;
if he reads of the high standards that
appear in sifrei mussar or in the biographies
of gedolei Torah, he will realize that
he is mistaken. The same phenomenon, but
very different sources and very different
methods of change.